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If only I didn't think my crazy was genetic. Looking at my family tree, I always been told I don’t belong, “You’re shy, not too blunt, Kind at heart,” but all just a front. I know what you see, because it is My reality, my family’s Insanity. It’s all there, every amino acid Coding and preparing my breakdowns. I sigh and I just wait for it. If only I didn't think my crazy was genetic.

I'm not really 'okay'. Most days, I cry myself to sleep if I hadn't already fainted from the exhaustion I get from simply breathing. Nights. They're the worst. Between the crying, and the thinking, and the contemplating, it's just silence. To be locked in a room where no one can hear you but yourself is the most frightening experience I live through most every night and sometimes, I lie, saying I'm going through a phase when in reality, there is no escaping this sea I'm drowning in and maybe I finally accept the truth. My truth. My reality. My thoughts. It all echoes in the back of my mind. It's what kills me. So before you tell me to not

Have you ever dreamed a dream? Wishing you were different, Had ability's, something special, Perhaps you'd like to be invisible, to fly, Maybe read some minds, Saved the world multiple times, But in reality, Would you really want super strength? To feel the LOSS, and feel the PAIN, To HIDE that you're special, Having a harness, those strong RESTRAINTS, No choose but to forget of ANGER, Not able to have your own time, People worshiping you, but you aren't a Saint, With the job, you can't COMPLAIN, It's the life I live, but I have NO CHOICE, Everyone depends on me, like I'm their only voice, You dream is my nightmare, that I

A Distance, for what is it worth? when life won't forgive, and it will not matter how far, the lessons you've gained, or the people you meet; Because change will always approach. To be honest, I don't mind, It is worth everything to go a distance, BECAUSE of the changes, or experience, Life is Worth everything in my eyes, because with the mistakes, with the shames, Happiness follows you. Life is limited, so travel the distance, Make goals, and achieve them. Be proud of who you are; who you will become. In the end, life is something you shouldn't regret. XD I am such a lame person. :D but I am happy.

Sometimes, you only have one choice, you have to stay strong, But why? Sometime, you have an answer, you don't let anyone see it, they'll cry. Sometimes, you will feel weak, you don't let anyone tell, but it's alright. Because in the end, you'll be just fine, it's not a crime to be happy, so be glad your alive.

A Simple Poem by Jessica Sometimes, I don't know what to say, I'm just confused in my life, what is my reason to strive? I know I have one, that I am certain of, but I just don't know exactly what. Perhaps the reason is success? or maybe happiness? Love? peace? or life itself? maybe I am searching for that one answer? maybe the search is my reason, my strive, my goal. after all, at the end of the day, I strive for joy. the joy of others, brings myself joy as well? I don't quite understand it all, but I understand enough to know, that I can entrust the plans of destiny, and the hands of fate to know what I need to find, and m