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Why you.
Why is it you.

You were supposed to be my protector.
My Knight in shining armor,
My lover and my friend,
Yet last night I felt betrayed,
You threatened me with the end.

I don't remember how often I get
"Like that" but every time
I remember how you become;
Blaming me, hating me.
I cannot help it.

Maybe I was too dependent.
Maybe I am just too weak;
Because the words that you speak,
That you spoke --- will break me.

I don't get it. I don't understand.
You are my purpose in life.
But I'm tired of life.
I'm hurting but why
Do I still --- love you.

Why is it you.
Why you.
Why.
Sometimes, I say too much
or I say too little
and I say it,
in such a way you don't understand.
I mumble, I stutter,
my pitch gets higher
my volume lower
but that's all because,
you always make me crazy.

For you, I'm crazy.
I don't think,
I just act,
and it's frightening when
you don't actually know what
the idea of love is.

I have seen my parents fall
out of love.
I have seen emotions fade.
I have seen the scars it leaves.
I-I-I don't want that.

I'm scared that you'll wake up one day
and decide:"I'm done".
I'm scared that you'll realize that
you--- hate me.

I'm crazy for you;
I act weird around you;
and one day you might think:
"Too crazy, too weird" then throw me away.

I am hard to handle,
stubborn to the core,
sweet as sugar,
and I get mood swings,
mad, sad, angry, and
sometimes quiet---
But I love you.

I really believe I do.
But I'm scared.
I'm scared of myself.

I'm scared I'll be too happy,
and then one day,
you'll leave.

P-P-Please don't leave.
I-I-I----------------------- I love you.
YO! this is my first journal entry :) i don't quite know what to say :\ hmmm.  I LOVE all music. and everyone on here ROCKS so far in my investigation... :D PEACE

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Jessica
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I was born in Northern California. I am not actually a visual artist...

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AntiSparkleVampire Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013
Hey, thanks for the fav! :D
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8Natsuko8 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thx 4 the fav
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EddsworldFreak Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
Happy b day
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aznprde Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :)
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EddsworldFreak Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
No prob
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artsyfartsyness Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2012  Student General Artist
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE WATCH! :iconawesomenessplz:
I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3
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you can check out my facebook page for custom shoes here: [link]
please LIKE IF U LIKE :)
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aznprde Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
No Problem :)
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EddsworldFreak Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
Sorry I don't think I can do the skateboard animation
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aznprde Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
that is alright :) It's no big deal. at least you didn't forget about it thank you for telling me :D
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EddsworldFreak Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
no problem
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